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6/19/06 01:01 pm

I was looking through my yearbook with my mom yesterday, and when we were finished reading it she said, "Nicole, you are a well loved girl." Which is so weird because last year, I wasn't at all. I find it very interesting that now that my time in Garden City is finally coming to a close, I have started to make friends again. I was so happy because I was going to be able to go away to college and not miss anyone, except dave. And now I have friends again. Really good, true, actually care about me friends. At least one of them is going to school with me. I've always loved this quote but it has taken on so much relevence in the past few days. Only three people know what I'm talking about. That is weird too. Anyway:

"Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there with open arms and open eyes."

I'm sort of getting the feeling that things are looking up on almost all counts.
Summer 2006, New York University 2010, here I come.
Current Music: The Book of Love - Peter Gabriel
Current Mood: content

3/31/06 06:31 pm - it's been a while

I'm stealing Alli's idea 

She Loves Me
April 7th and 8th
8 pm
Garden City High School 
$8 for students, $10 general admission

It's basically You've Got Mail with letters, and in Budapest.  This show is very important to me and a lot of other people.  So please, if you don't have any other plans, come on one night.  Just one.  Thanks very much.  Bring your friends.

Also, if you come Friday, you are invited back to my house after the show.
And also, I got into NYU.  Finally someone wants me. Yay.

Current Mood: excited

1/26/06 02:09 pm

I haven't written in soooo long but people have been complaining so i'm resurrecting my livejournal.  last entry was about my roadtest, i didnt pass that one but i passed the next one, so if you need a ride i guess i'll give you one. if i like you.

college auditions have been going okay

  1. Syracuse - done, i was sick and my voice was like poop, so yeah, not getting in there
  2. Catholic - i forgot my headshot and my resume, my mom fortunately had a wallet senior photo of me, and my dad emailed my resume, but still, drama. wherever i go, drama follows. and then i set my tape to the wrong accompinament and spent about 20 minutes looking for the right one, couldn't find it, so i just did one song. and i messed up my monologue. the good news is, they approved me for acceptance, so now all i have to do is get into the school
  3. University of Miami - went okay, the only person that watched auditions was the freaking movement teacher, so, um yeah. but it was alright
  4. Florida State - best one yet. callback for dance, apparently people in the hallways were impressed when i started singing. they cut my monologue off but i got most of it done. i got into the university with a scholarship, so hopefully i'll get into the school of music
  5. Ithaca - leaving tomorrow
  6. University of Michigan - Feb. 3
  7. NYU - Feb. 4
  8. Cincinnati Conservatory - Feb. 5
  9. Penn State - Feb. 17
  10. Carnegie Mellon - Feb. 18
  11. Illinois Wesleyan - Feb. 24

So yeah, wish me broken legs i guess. i really really want UMich. really really bad. as does every other person i've talked to. hmm

midterms are done! i've been having a really amazing past few days though. which is good. things are really good.

sorry about the long entry. maybe i'll keep updating.

 

Current Music: Moving Units - Unpersuaded
Current Mood: busy

11/19/05 09:58 pm

Road test in two days. Now that's scary. Anyone who took it in Garden City want to give me advice? Thanks.
Current Mood: cold

11/17/05 09:23 am

Study hall la la la. I'm surprised the school hasn't blocked livejournal like it blocked everything else. Anyways blood donating today. I am kinda nervous that I will be really weak or whatever. Oh and Masquers really pisses me off. I can't wait to get out of this stupid ass town. AND Winter Wonderland pisses me off. Cause it's so much drama that is totally unnecessary. Why can't we all just have a good time? GRRRR...

Other than that, everything is good. It's Katie Kim's birthday so wish her happy birthday. And it's thursday which is almost friday which is almost the weekend.

That's all.
Current Mood: frustrated

11/3/05 06:42 pm

it's very strange not having a best friend. i realized recently that i haven't for a while. kinda makes me sad a little. who wants to be my best friend?



PS: Dave you are my best friend but you are also my boyfriend so it isn't the same. i heart you. don't be mad at me.

PPS: EVERYONE DON'T FORGET ABOUT MY BIRTHDAY PARTY. NOVEMBER 10TH.
Current Mood: nostalgic

10/31/05 10:13 pm

phil dorn and I are having a birthday party together and it is going to be a rave/clubbing party at my house. we are turning my house into TABU. Michelle Cooper I know you are excited.

PS: You all have to dress like guido kids and slutty club girls. OK thank you. Good bye.
Current Mood: bouncy

10/26/05 09:23 pm

Today dave, tommy and I went to party city and looked at costumes. then we went to burger king and played table football. i lost, miserably, of course, because all forms of sports are totally NOT my thing. then tommy made his fro even more fro-like with a burger king crown, and i put one on and we scared passing strangers out the window of dave's car. DONT YOU WISH YOU WERE US? I know you do. It's okay. I know.

next topic: I love the feeling that my life is going somewhere. It's an amazing thing to know that you have a future. I also love Stella Adler. A lot. It is so educational. Finally learning how to act! YES! AND everyone there is awesome AND we are having a sick party for me and elizabeth's birthday in 2 weeks. WOOT.

okay so the point of this entry is that I am telling you all that my birthday is November 21st. This is the last time it will be mentioned. (if i remember not to mention it again) And then I am going to see who remembers. NOVEMBER 21 NOVEMBER 21 NOVEMBER 21

in other news, Dave is amazing, as usual, I don't deserve him because he is in fact so amazing, blah blah blah, no one cares, etc. Senior paper was handed in today! I hope mine was decent. And mr psenika told me I held a note for 5 beats when it was supposed to be 6 but in actuality I DID hold it for 6 beats. And we got in a fight about it. I am a really big music nerd

Death Cab is my favorite band, thanks nick and phil and nick's friends for being cool.

and it smells like BLUEBERRIES.

I love new friends.

Last but not least, my cheap ass parents are conserving energy and have not turned the heat on yet, so my fingers are now frozen to the keyboard

sorry about this long entry
Current Music: All State Soprano 1 learning CD whattttt?
Current Mood: cold

10/6/05 10:11 pm

do you ever wish that you could just change your personality? like just snap your fingers and stop being so stupid/annoying/self-centered/mean/obnoxious? i wish that right now. i wish i didnt say stupid things when i got angry. i wish everything didn't have to be about me. i wish i appreciated people more.

fact of the matter is, i need to change. most people probably haven't felt the full effect of my true self, but i still need their help. i need all the help i can get because up until about 2 hours ago, i didn't believe in changing. i thought everyone was made as they were made and that was that. but then i realized that my personality might just screw up the one good thing i have right now, just like it screwed up all the other good things i used to have.

usually when you feel like everything is your fault, it usually isn't. this time, everything is my fault.

please give me another chance.
Current Mood: anxious

10/2/05 06:15 pm

it's happening again. why can't this time just be different? why can't i just be different?
Current Music: For Felix - Rise Above
Current Mood: exanimate

9/25/05 05:24 pm

i hate this. hatehatehatehatehathehatehahteahteahate.

i don't want to do anything ever again but be around you. it makes life awfully difficult.

i also dislike writing college essays. i feel like i am being fake in them, and i feel like everyone will see right through me. i really hope i get in to college.

on the upside of anger, my house smells like really good dinner food.

and i <3 you all. even if i get angry sometimes and say mean things. i am never really serious.

please comment on this entry. even if you don't have a livejournal you can comment. i just really need to feel the love right about now.

kthnks
Current Mood: careless

9/19/05 08:13 pm

ps: OKGO rocks your socks, and my socks, and your grandma's socks, AND kelly moran's socks. no one else's socks though.

9/19/05 08:10 pm

vocal jazz tomorrow bitches.

the whistle goes WOO-WOOOO!

 

 

Current Music: OKGO - Invincible
Current Mood: devilish

9/9/05 10:04 am

I have Death Cab for Cutie tickets, I have three people to go to Death Cab for Cutie with me, I'm also going to the Killers with Juliaaaaa and Acceptance with Dave, I have most of the day off from school today, my cousin's wedding is this weekend, I might actually not fail AP Music Theory, and I have the best boyfriend in the entire world.

Life is pretty damn good.

9/6/05 07:27 pm

Also, I might add, this is always my fault. I always seem to find a way to fuck things up. I'm sorry to everyone that I fucked things up for. I wish it wasn't the way it was.

9/6/05 07:19 pm - i love screwing myself over

Here's how it goes.

I find someone, I like them, I let them know I like them, I scare the shit out of them, I get pissed that they don't like me as much as I like them, I decide I'll show them by not liking them as obviously, I slowly start losing interest, or getting pissed off more and more, they start liking me as much as I used to like them, they try to get me to like them, but by then it's too late, and I'm gone.

What a vicious cycle. Why is it that two people can never seem to be on the same page at the same time? Or maybe it's just me?

Whatevs.
Current Music: Coheed and Cambria - The Crowing
Current Mood: resigned

9/3/05 11:13 pm - fun

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.
( my answers )
Current Music: new death cab yaaay
Current Mood: cheerful

8/27/05 07:10 pm

i'm really sad

but kelly's party last night was super fun. i love meeting new people. and reminising with people i knew when i was younger. like john krauss. fucking john krauss. what a crazy kid.

i <3 kelly nicole moran. because she throws fun parties. and we make punch and burn ants in the fire pit. and she lets me borrow her necklaces. and we look at so-and-so's eyebrows eating the world. i can't say who because i don't know if that person reads this.

sometimes i wonder what people say about me behind my back. like people that i think are my really good friends. i think they talk about me behind my back a lot.

sometimes i also wonder what happened to my childhood. and what happened to my innocence. and everyone else's innocence.

anyways, life isn't that bad. i have at least three people who care about me a lot. and that's enough for me i think.

8/27/05 07:05 pm

i'm really sad

8/22/05 02:23 pm

If we could turn the earth
into a small community of 100 people
keeping the same proportions we have nowadays
it would be something like this:

61 Asians
12 Europeans
13 Africans
14 North & South Americans

50 men
50 women

26 are white
74 are not white

67 are not Christian
33 are Christian

6 people own
59% of the whole community wealth

80 people live in poverty
14 can't read
33 die of famine
just 7 will have a higher education
just 8 own a computer

If you've never seen a relative die in a war
If you've never been a slave
If you've never been tortured
You are luckier than 500 million people

If you keep your food in a fridge
Your clothes in a closet
You have a roof over your head
And a bed to sleep in
You are richer than 75% of the entire world population

If you have a bank account
You are a part of the 8% wealthiest people in the world

If you can read these words
You are luckier than the 1 billion people
who can't read at all.



Makes you realize just how lucky you are.
Current Music: Dane Cook
Current Mood: contemplative
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